Strong

Mix one part teenage angst, five cups childhood tragedy, a dash of depression and spritz of genetics, and one cup of inability to have a normal relationship with males. Top with emotional bottling and you have yourself a very unbalanced girl who thought the world would end because of a bad day.

Thankfully that started turning around after high school. I quickly learned I always could come up with the money, I could always smile after a breakup, and I could always have one super kick ass day after a terrible one.

So it saddens me to see so many people with so many complaints, so much bitterness, and most of all so much negativity. About 90% of my woes were self induced and I guess it just takes a little maturity to stop blaming everyone else. But come on, most of us are past our 20's and still have nothing great to say on a daily basis.

If I could teach my baby girl one thing about life it's this:
Terrible things seldom happen to the people that deserve them. They do however usually happen to the people that can handle them.

Before August 27th I freaked out when my lawn didn't get mowed, threw fits when my mover didnt get there early enough to help. I ignored my boyfriends calls when I didn't get my way. And one thing could easily ruin my day. That weekend I had plenty of problems on my plate that seemed so huge, so stressful. And then in one day life showed me how completely and utterly stupid pretty much any of my "problems" had every been.

It breaks my heart to see people consumed with anger or sadness. Yes of course betrayal hurts, bad luck gets you off track, and most things never work out as planned. But you know what? I'm HERE. It takes possibly the shittiest thing ever happening to you to embrace life. I'm grateful I've struggled, or I'd be just another miserable soul posting my problems on facebook. If it were all easy you'd never know how lucky you were.

I have to stop myself from yelling at people all the time. I want to shake them, Yell "breath you idiot!"

As long as I'm breathing life will be beautiful. I refuse to let anything ruin my day. Every song I jam in the car, every laugh until you cry moment, every Ithinkmyheartmyexplodebecauseiloveyousomuch feeling, every feel good movie, inspiration, idea, epiphany, dinner with the family, seeing someone you missed, every butterfly and happy memory I've ever had, every true friend, every baby laugh, learning something new, and every beautiful day I wake up to makes life so worth it. I may not know where I'm going and I might not have done everything right but dammit I can be happy!

We have so much more in us than we could ever know. There are still more good than bad people. And there are still some pretty stellar sunrises for anyone that chooses to just BE.

I don't know. I might be a little crazy, but I've got a little voice named Broham to always remind me to "stop being so dramatic and just keep trucking."